Venting

Throwaway account because this whole situation is a damn mess.
I’m 19M, and my baby mama—let’s call her Sarah (25F)—and I have a kid together. Our relationship? Toxic from the jump. Constant fights, things getting physical—on both ends, and yeah, I’m not proud of that. We both ended up locked up at different points. It was chaos.
I’ll admit, I messed up. I cheated on her. Not once. More than once. I know I was trash back then. I’ve been going to therapy since we broke up trying to fix myself—not for her, but for my kid. Trying to be better. Trying to be present.
But she doesn’t make it easy. We split a year ago, but it’s like the drama never left. She’s been on one lately—calling nonstop, popping up at my place, blowing up my phone with threats and accusations.
Last week, it hit a new level. She shows up screaming that I’m not spending enough time with our kid (which is BS—I’m there every chance I get). She’s yelling in my face, following me room to room, shoving me, and then she hits me. Right in the face. I didn’t retaliate—I just pushed her back to give myself space.
Now she’s flipping the script. Says she’s gonna file a police report. Says I hit her.
I didn’t.
She knows it.
I’m scared.
I’m tired.
And the worst part? This isn’t even the first time she’s pulled this. Cops have been called on her before—maybe they’ll see through the lies. But if not? I don’t even know what happens next…